The Thing I'll Never Ask

I wish I could know... how long you were/have...

a) been with them...                                 c) aware that you are a beautiful person
b) loved a child                                       d) happy before now


Never will I ask you to answer. Never will I beg you again. Just keep enjoying what you read. 

The Only Perfection Life Has

If you have ever been enveloped in the arms of someone you love you will understand what I am about to say. If you have not however, then you know that there is much to look forward to. The pain melts away, smiles cloak the surrounding world, and hearts whisper secrets for only the two of you to hear. By far though, the best part is fully seeing and believing how much love the world holds for you just so you can experience such beauty. If you have ever been enveloped in the arms of someone you love you will understand its a moment or a day that you could never pass up. If you have not however, then I hope you now see just how much is waiting for you.

The Leaves Have To Fall

"Hey, you've reached me but I can't get to the phone right now," the speaker echoed as you sat behind the wheel.
"Hello, Princess, it's me, I just wanted you to know that I'm coming home. I'll be there late, but I'm on my way. I'll see you soon. Okay, well this is, uh, me, and I miss you baby." you smiled falsely.
Well, I've been waiting for you, I know how much pain you were in. They found this in your hand after you died, it was written on an old crumpled napkin:

I only wish I could have told you I won't make it home. I wish I could have told you that I screwed up. I wish I had told you in person. I love you with all I have. But I have a secret, I've been married since before I met you... We haven't been happy in a long time though. We don't share a bed. We haven't had sex since the day it was said and done. We don't even talk. It won't mean much to you, but I still love you, that hasn't changed and it never will. I'm sorry I kept it from you. I know this hurts you, I know I'm probably killing you right now as you're reading this, I'm sorry. I couldn't tell you in person, I couldn't simply break up with you either, because I knew you'd be pissed and I couldn't live with myself knowing I caused that. And princess, I'm so sorry. I know you'll never forgive me, but I guess that's kinda why I did this part. It was so you'd be happy. Princess, I messed up  I fucked up. I'm sorry. I love you... 

My baby butterfly, forever. 

With love,
Steven... 


But right now, I just want to let you know, I saw an indent on your finger... where a ring had to have been once before. I simply chose to ignore it. We all have a past we'd rather not tell. And I saw a story in your eyes, I just didn't know how to read it. I'm sorry I believed you. I'm sorry I let you love me. I'm so sorry though, more sorry than I've ever been before, I'm sorry I was able to keep your attention...


P.s.I would never really kill YOU off. 

The Careful Instructions

This is a touchstone. It is exactly as the name says. Something to hold on to when youre sad, when youre remember them, when you love, and when you hate. Its something they loved more than life itself. Sometimes it is the same touch stone they had for another and sometimes it isnt. Some of them have stories, but this one doesnt. a very rare few give power not yours. In fact this one does you no good for anything except holding on to..

The Holiday Suggests It

I guess I should mention just how lucky I am to have met you. At least you showed me I am a stronger person than I once thought. Im so sorry I believed you for so long though, because now Im only thankful that youre gone.