The Magnificence

You are wonderful. Always.

The Things Running Through My Bad Mind

I really do love you. I really do. It's just that my tears are overpowering my will. It's just that my smile is pathetic. It's just that I don't know who I am or what to do. I'm so sorry love, but I just don't have the patience to put up with myself lately. It's like I'm fighting my heart for my own soul. It's like I'm paying myself for a moment of my own time. It's like fear of myself hurting me is making me hurt worse than if I just did the things I think I should. Maybe I'm losing my voice. Maybe I'm just losing my ability to write. Maybe I'm just losing my head. Should you see me walking down the street could you please tell me where it is I've gone? 

The made up bricks

Don't trust the girls that wear pounds of make up.  Each day the wall is thicker and stronger not to mention each day they are someone new. I guess what I mean is don't trust me...

The Surprise In the Mail

I asked for your heart, when I woke up I was delighted to see what I really got was you.

The Snowflakes Will be Ebony

One day when everyone has learned there is nobody else left to trust, ash will rain from the heavens and soot will suffocate us each night. There will never be a "white Christmas" again, just an ebony blanket out to kill us all.

The Lanterns are beautiful dragons

Fiery breath is not to cause pain. Thats because it's unconditional love.

P.S. Thank you for your unconditional love these past few weeks.

The Vikings

Just because they look tough and act like they could and would rip your head off, doesn't mean they don't have a heart. In fact, if only they were understood then they would have so much more of a heart. I know they do. One kissed me today and said Everything would be alright because I am amazing. 

The True Meaning of Something With Meaning

This is something with meaning and it has meaning, I know every single word means something to you. And this is something because to me it is words floating on a blank screen.Somehow to them it is poetry and to you it is a diary. Call it what you will no matter what it is something. Tell me they see no meaning and it's their fault because this is something with meaning to you and to me and that's all that matters. When I began writing this it was only for the world, now it is all for us and the world that reads it may understand what their brittle minds can but I know that you are the only one with the power to understand the full intensity of each word, space, and syllable  And they thought they could ruin me so they beat me down, but I didn't fall. Just like you thought you were alone - but you weren't and you never will be. Sufficient enough to say this is something with meaning and I hope you find this soon. 

The Long Time No See

I missed you more than you would believe. It was nice to see you again. I hope we will meet up soon, there's a lot we could catch up on, and it would be nice to unfreeze this heart of mine. 

The Television

People act poorly. You watch some commit crimes. There's yelling. Sometimes tears. Girls giggle in a gaggle about everything good and bad, especially who's had more sex at 12 years old. Boys stare at them all they can and aim for one thing. Nothing at all is blocked. No one's life is actually like that. Oh wait, everyone's is.

The Tombstone Should Say

While you were searching for someone else to be, the real you committed suicide. I hope you're happy with the lies you're living. 

The Words For All

Yes I have meaning in these. Yes They have heart. Yes They are real. But not all to me. Some are real for you, him, her, and them. Some are only real for me. Please, please keep that in mind as you read my soul. There are only so many things left to say. You cant present problems from it of you dont know who I am, what Ive seen, or what I know.

Thank you,
MRK